This year, I want to start implementing something new. I’m going to be writing a monthly recap focusing on myself and other things I’d like to add in. I don’t know how well this is going to turn out but we will see. Hopefully, I’ll be able to write something I learn every month. January was a very weird month for me. There were some downs, but mostly ups.

  • One of my friends, Jasmine, gave me a coffee maker, it’s super cute.
  • Another friend of mine, who is a barista at Starbucks, gave me a venti cup full of COFFEE grinds.
  • My friend, Valerie, stayed up with me until 2 am practicing my pageant questions with me, which I am forever grateful for.
  • I almost killed (not really) my boyfriend/ex-boyfriend. Confusing, I know, but it’s all resolved now.
  • Got my first hair blowout and it was one of the most relaxing experience ever!
  • Took an OrangeTheory class (not for me).
  • Met some pretty cool new people. (Psst. I’m talking about you, Shelby Bell and Alex Reyes!)

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Alone vs. Lonely

A couple of weeks ago, one of my coworkers asked me what I had plans for after work. I told her that I was going to a local coffee shop to listen in for open mic night. She then asked me if I was going with anyone and I told her no, I was going by myself. Her first reaction was “What?! That’s so lonely!” Going to open mic is one of my favorite things to do. Most of the time I’m by myself and I find it relaxing because I don’t have to worry if the person I’m with enjoys it or not. For example, if you had read my Art of Ice Cream Experience, you would know that we didn’t spend as much time in the exhibit as I would like. Simply because I knew my then-boyfriend wasn’t really having the best time.

My coworker’s client had said that it’s not lonely at all and I have an old soul. There’s a difference between being lonely and being alone, the client said. Being lonely is the need for someone. Being alone is a choice. I recently read the poetry book, Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur, which I HIGHLY recommend if you haven’t already. It’s free on the Kindle app if you have Amazon Prime. One of the quotes that stood out to me is: “Loneliness is a sign you are in desperate need of yourself.” It’s true on so many levels that I don’t even know where to begin.

Attachment Theory

Another thing that I learned and found incredibly interesting is Attachment Theories. To sum it up, there are three main types of theory: secure, anxious, and avoidance. Basically, 60% of people are in the “secure attachment.” This means you’re perfectly independent and balanced but when you’re feeling depressed or low, you lean on someone. Avoidance theory means that you don’t depend on anyone – at all. This isn’t the best since it’s humanly impossible and you’re always closing everyone out.

There’s anxious theory, which means that you’re always wanting to attach yourself to someone or have someone attach to you. You’re constantly wanting to be with them and you feel lost without them. This was me. I was the prime example of anxious theory and I believe this is one of the reasons why my boyfriend and I broke up. While I don’t want to go too much into detail with this since it’s pretty personal, I found myself thinking “okay, what am I suppose to do?” whenever he had plans to go out with his friends. I would constantly think “if he loved me, he would have spent time with me.” I always needed reassurance from my partner and needed him to constantly tell me that he loved me – even though he showed it in his actions.

Once I recognized these theories, I took a stepped back and realize, “Wow. I really needed to change myself and the way I think.” Acknowledging these theories and understanding where I stood was a huge factor in my self-growth and self-love. Feel free to read more about Attachment Theories here.

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2018 - Demi Bang

I am so eager for change. Here’s why 2018 is going to be my year.


I am going to be alone. For the past couple of years (basically, since I started dating in 8th grade), it was always relationship after relationship. No more. I am craving for that solitude. I am making a vow to myself that I will not be in a relationship until at least half the year. While I obviously can’t stop things from happening (fate or God or whatever the case you believe), I promise to truly understand the meaning of self-care and self-love before immersing myself into something that could potentially lead to sleepless nights and endless pain.

Self-care and self-love are more than just loving your physical self and spoiling yourself with luxury skincare products. It is being satisfied with who you are and where you are heading towards. I have so much potential, to be honest. I have so many plans for the next couple of months with my blog, school, and career. My plans for the next couple of months include traveling to LA for the whole summer. While my former boyfriends never asked me to put aside my plans, it felt like an obligation. I understand that it was my doing but when I start caring for someone, I can’t help it.


While it’s nice to travel with someone, it’s hard if they can’t go with you. I have two travel plans for this upcoming year 2018 and I honestly can’t be worried about them seeing someone else while I’m away or missing anyone. I don’t have time to miss people! The first one is to LA. I am planning on doing an internship out in LA during the summer (2018) and hopefully (fingers crossed) I can stay with a relative out there! My second and most exciting plan is a spiritual trip to Portland. I actually was planning on taking this trip last summer (2017) but financial issues came up. At that time, postponing the trip was the most responsible thing I could have done. I want to go out to Portland for a week and enjoy the hike and meet with other creatives in the community.


This section is important because I have so many interests to the point where I don’t know what exactly I want to do with my life. I love math; hence, I am a math major. I want to go into Public Relations; hence I am double majoring in communication. Part of me always wanted to go into the medical field and become a Physician’s Assistant but realistically I don’t like biology or chemistry, and PA programs are so freakin’ EXPENSIVE. I just want to be able to inject botox! I’ve also thought about becoming a Pharmacist (worked in OTC at Walmart for a while and joined ASU Pre-Pharmacy club too). Haha. This is the time for me to dabble in these areas of what I am interested in so I can figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.

Palm Reading 2018 - Demi Bang

Palm Reading Experience

A couple of weeks ago, I stumbled upon a Facebook post regarding talking to a medium. While I had no interest in connecting with anyone deceased, the more I read the comments on that post, the more interested I became in seeing a psychic for a reading. I originally didn’t have any reason to go. I didn’t feel lost or felt like I needed guidance. Fast forward to a couple of weeks later, my then-boyfriend and I got into a really bad argument and took a break for a while. I was upset and after talking to one of my friends, the topic of palm reading came up. The next day, we went to go get our palms read.

What The Psychic Told Me:
  • I have a long life.
  • I seem happy and satisfied but deep down, I’m not. (Sometimes I’m so good at faking it that I actually believe I’m truly happy and that depression/social anxiety isn’t a thing)
  • Financial issues have been difficult for me to grasp. (This can be said to every college student?)
  • My family is giving me stress. They’re expecting too much from me.
  • The ocean, lake, water is where I find my happiness. (True because if you read my Sedona post here, you would know that I wanted to go somewhere with water)
  • My grandpa is protecting me and guiding me towards the right path. (Maybe? Not really close to my grandpa but he did past away two years ago from this month)
  • My dreams are messages. (Haven’t really had any dreams since the reading except for going to local coffee shops… What can I say? I love coffee shops, haha)
  • I have a psychic power. I’m constantly sensing my surroundings and reading people (Kind of true? Most of the time I can easily read people and it is often times true)
  • I have two upcoming trips that are both positive (I took one to Tucson for Christmas and it was fairly nice except my then-boyfriend and I got into a major fight Christmas night… But I’m excited to see what the other one is?!)
  • February is the start of a new cycle for me and it is going to be positive. Lots of new doors opening! (No plans happening in February except for Miss Vietnam Arizona pageant… Hmm… Who knows?)
  • There’s a lot of jealousy; I have to be careful with my surroundings. (Not exactly sure if this means I’m gonna be jealous of other people or people are gonna be jealous of me?)
  • A class, training (something short term) that I’m doing is going towards the right direction (Is it one of my math classes? My internship? Training for eyelash extension? I’m doing so many short-term things!)
  • There’s abundle of creativity in my future
  • Negative energy overall and my chakra is unbalance

To be honest, I don’t know how much of this palm reading I believe but I do feel like everything she said was pretty accurate for me. I kind of wish I asked questions, such as “Am I going toward the right career path?”, “Am I going to be overall happy with my life?” or “What is my love life looking like?” I was so scared and nervous that I couldn’t think of anything specific to ask. Part of me wants to know so I can feel relieved but the other part doesn’t want to know because sometimes, ignorance is bliss.

I’ve talked to a couple of people about palm reading (mostly my clients at work). A lot of my clients don’t believe in readings. Some of my clients believe that the mind is so powerful and when people put suggestions in your head, you force yourself to make those predictions true. Thus making what the psychic said to be true. I did, however, meet two clients who have gotten their palm read and both had positive (and true) experiences with it.

Would I Get My Palm Read Again?

Hmm. A big part of me says yes, but another part says no. I still don’t know whether or not I believe in palm readings. Check out this blog post I read about how the author got a bad palm reading and it basically ruined her life. Scary, right? I might go maybe once or twice but I would take it with a grain of salt.

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Productive Week - Demi Bang

Sundays are my favorite (not really). It’s the day I get most of my cleaning done in an effort to avoid doing homework. Who else feels the same? Here are ways you can do to start a more productive week.

1. Clean Clean Clean

I live by myself so keeping the place clean and tidy is sometimes easy and hard. Easy because everything in my apartment is obviously mine. Hard because it’s my personal space and if I go through phases where I don’t have a problem with my apartment looking messy, then I usually just leave it there. I find that when I have a clean environment, I feel much more at ease and fewer things I have to worry about. Even though I’m rarely at home due to school, work, and volunteering, it’s so relaxing coming home to a clean apartment.

2. Laundry

I love doing the laundry. I’m not gonna lie, I pretty much hang everything up. My PJs, EVERYTHING. This is probably why I have a million hangers because I’m just way too lazy to fold clothes. Storytime: one of my coworkers was telling her client how her husband hangs up every clothing piece and never actually folds laundry. I remember just looking at her being like, “oh shit. I do that too?” Haha, I mean, everyone has their own preference for how they organize their clothes. Having done the laundry is so nice because if you want to wear a specific blouse, it’s clean and you don’t have to look through your dirty laundry basket and looking for any sweat stains or smelling it if it’s acceptable for society, haha.

3. Meal Prep

Not going to lie, every time I’ve tried meal prepping, it never really benefits me. What happens is that I will eat everything that is in my pantry or my fridge EXCEPT for my meal prep. Then after 3-5 days, the food goes bad. Oops. If you’re going to meal prep, I suggest making different kinds of food or make something you’ll really enjoy and what get sick of. This saves so much time during the week especially if you overslept or are running late.

4. Plan Out Your Week

Take a moment to think about what you have to do this week and write them down in your planner. This will keep you organized so that halfway through the week, you won’t have to stress out about not having time to go to the grocery store when you had plenty of free time on Monday… Does that make sense? This is my favorite step in having a productive week!

5. Relax

Just sit back and enjoy the last couple of hours of your weekend. This could include taking a long leisure walk at the park and enjoy nature, or lay in bed and watch Netflix. My favorite is working out! (Check out my fitness posts here!) If you have homework, we all know the saying: due tomorrow, do tomorrow. Just kidding, but if you do have homework, make sure you get that done first.

Until next time, my little ones, have a productive week and remember: there’s a difference between productive and keeping yourself busy (I learned this the hard way). Follow my Instagram to keep up with my life!


Bell Trail - Sedona - Demi Bang

Bell Trail - Sedona - Demi Bang

Anyone who knows me knows that I LOVE hiking. I’m always down to go out for an adventure. I strongly believe that a new change of environment every once in a while is good for the soul and can lead to more positivity in life. My boyfriend and I decided to go hiking up in Sedona over Thanksgiving weekend. Originally I wanted to go camping, but of course, we procrastinated and we ended up googling a trail to hike the night before.

Bell Trail to Wet Beaver Creek

We decided to go on the Bell Trail because I really wanted to go somewhere with water. Back in June, we hiked up to the Devil’s Bridge. (Word of advice: don’t go hiking in June! Especially in Arizona! I don’t know what we were thinking exactly, but let’s just say that we were D Y I N G and we both got sunburnt pretty bad!) Although the view was great, I prefer scenic view with water instead, haha. The trail was fairly easy; roughly 7 miles round trip. In fact, we didn’t stop to rest or took any breaks at all. The hike took us about 4 hours to complete; we started hiking around 11 am and we concluded near 3 pm. This time of year in Arizona (October / November) is perfect to go hiking since it’s not blazing hot and once we got closer to the creek, it was actually pretty chilly. The creek was beautiful and we saw other hikers jumping off the cliff into the water.

Nonetheless, I hope you guys enjoy this short clip I filmed! If you have any suggestions on where we should go hike next, let me know down below! I really want to go camping, haha.

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The holidays are right around the corner and here is my holiday wishlist! While I don’t expect anyone to purchase any of these for me, it’s more of a “what I need to save for.” I’m not really a materialistic person. I can live without these things. However, If you’re going to get me anything for the holidays, I’ll gladly appreciate money for gas or rent or food! Haha, adulting at it’s finest. Feel free to use this wishlist as a gift guide for someone in your life!

Photo by KaNu Pham

My main wish for the holidays is to spend with friends and families, and my boyfriend. I really want to go on a trip and enjoy nature. But if we’re talking about physical things, here are some things that are on my holiday wishlist.

1. Crossbody Bag

I’ve been eyeing this bag ever since I saw it featured in a YouTube video. It is the Gucci Marmont Mini in Black. I can’t remember what video or who the YouTuber was but it was like, love at first sight. I’ve been wanting a crossbody bag in black for the longest time and while I’ve never seen this bag in person, I definitely feel like this is a perfect size. I’ve been using this crossbody bag that I got from Areopostle 6 years ago and while it does the job, it’s not the cutest nor is it big enough for ANYTHING besides my car keys.



2. Skincare Products

I’ve never really taken good care of my skin. I slept in my makeup numerous of times and I rarely ever use sunscreen on my face. It wasn’t until I met my boyfriend, whom I’ve never seen anyone spends sooooo much time on their skin. He got me CeraVe Renewing SA Cream one time because he said I was going to have wrinkly legs when I’m older considering how dried my legs were. After lecturing me on how important sunscreen is, he also got me Olay moisturizer with SPF 15. Can you tell how much he cares about my skin? Haha, of course after being with him for a while, I took after him.

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t look up Kim Kardashian’s skincare routine. I’m curious about what someone who can basically afford anything would use on their face. Needless to say, most of her skincare products are ridiculously expensive. While none of these items are in her routine but here’s what’s on my wishlist: La Mer Creme De La Mer Moisturizing Cream, Estee Lauder Advanced Night Repair, La Mer The Eye Concentrate, Tata Harper Rejuvenating Serum, Dr. Dennis Gross Skincare Ferulic Acid + Retinol Triple Correction Eye Serum, Tracie Martyn International Absolute Purity Toner.



3. Workout Shoes

I normally use my flat sneakers for lifting, but I really want a pair that I can go run or hike in. I usually use my old pair of Nike cheer shoes that I got 7 years ago. SEVEN! That’s almost a decade ago. The bottoms eventually lost its grip and became smooth and slippery. I currently am dying over these Nike Roshe.



4. Workout Clothes

You know how when you get new workout clothes, it makes you want to go to the gym more often? Well, I’m pretty much obsessed with going to the gym. I workout roughly 5 times a week and I know my body needs rest days but I just want to get stronger and stronger! I have two leggings that fit my body comfortably and don’t even get me started on my sports bra. They’re the super cheap ones from Forever 21. Don’t get me wrong, they’re super cute though but they just aren’t the best for actually working out and sweating in.



5. Books Books Books

This one is a biggie on my wishlist. Growing up, my family and I never bought books. Instead, we would just rent them out at the library. I somehow grew up with that mentality to never buy books since once you finish the book, you’ll never read it again. Anyone who knows me in real life knows how obsessed I am with my planner. I color-coordinate the shit out of it. I just want to be able to own books and annotate it. Books that are about self-love and entrepreneurship are my kind of books.


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101 Things in 1001 Days is essentially what it means. These are 101 things I would like to accomplish within 2.75 years. Majority of these tasks probably won’t be accomplished in the time frame but never say never! I’ll be crossing out this list as I achieve them and possibly write a blog post on them as well.

101 Things in 1001 Days - Demi Bang

Start Date: 17 November 2017
End Date: 12 August 2020

[ T R A V E L + O U T D O O R S ]
1. Visit Singapore
2. Visit Vietnam
3. Visit Japan
4. Visit Portland
5. Visit New York City
6. Visit San Fransico
7. Visit Mexico
8. Visit the Ice Cream Museum
9. Go on a trip with my significant other
10. Go camping
11. Go snowboarding
12. Go ice skating
13. Go skydiving
14. Go stargazing/cloud gazing
15. Go on a week-long road trip
16. Rent out a cabin and enjoy nature
17. Study Abroad
18. Go on a trip by myself
19. Hike Grand Falls
20. Visit 10 Ramen places in LA and blog about it
21. Visit 10 Coffee shops in LA and blog about it
22. Have a bonfire
23. Have a picnic

[ C O N C E R T ]
24. Lollapalooza
25. Childish Gambino
26. Gold Rush

[ S O C I A L M E D I A ]
27. 10,000 followers on Instagram
28. 500 followers on my blog
29. 20,000 subscribers on my YouTube
30. Complete a Vlogmas
31. Host/Organize a blogger event
32. Post on YouTube every other day consecutively for a month
33. Blog post twice a week for a month

[ H E A L T H + F I T N E S S ]
34. No soda for a month
35. No potato chips for a month
36. No alcohol for a month
37. No Hot Cheetos for a month
38. No McDonalds for a month
39. No eating out for a month
40. No coffee for two weeks
41. Eat clean for a month
42. Do 100 pushups for 30 days challenge
43. Workout every single day for 100 days
44. Hit the 200 club in back squats
45. Hit the 200 club in bench press
46. Attend a dance class every week for a month
47. Participate in a 5k run
48. Give yoga a try again
49. Take a spin class
50. Stretch every day for a month
51. Be able to do the splits & scorpion

[ E D U C A T I O N ]
52. Get my esthetician license
53. Get trained from Borboleta
54. Get trained in microblading
55. Get on Dean’s List (lol)
56. Attend a blogging workshop
57. Read 5 books from start to finish
58. Get an internship out in LA
59. Graduate from undergrad
60. Apply to graduate school
61. Intern for a modeling agency one semester
62. Intern for a social media position
63. Intern at a MedSpa
64. Improve my Vietnamese (took 1/2 semester)
65. Improve my Chinese

[ B E A U T Y ]
66. Get 2 ear piercings
67. Get a tattoo
68. Get botox (for prevention!)
69. Get lip fillers
70. Get a microneedling facial
71. Get a boob job (lol)
72. Get my wisdom teeth taken out
73. Get straighter teeth (maybe braces again? ugh)
74. Invest in a really good skincare
75. Go completely blonde
76. Wear sunscreen every day for a month

[ G I V I N G B A C K ]
77. Donate blood
78. Attend a charity gala
79. Join Big Brothers/Big Sisters
80. Volunteer once a week for a whole year
81. Pay for the people behind me in drive-thru at In-N-Out
82. Pay for the people behind me in drive-thru at Starbucks
83. Send my mom roses randomly
84. Mail 10 handwritten letters

[ P E R S O N A L ]
85. Attend Phoenix Fashion Week
86. Join a pageant
87. Clean my room at my mom’s house
88. Detach myself from my phone/laptop for 48 hours
89. Cook for my significant other (anything but eggs lol)
90. Move into my first apartment
91. Make a paddle for my Big
92. Work for two weeks straight
93. Unsubscribe from spam emails on my mom’s account
94. Answer the “50 questions that will free your mind” with a friend (have a deep convo w/ them)
95. Fix a relationship that ended on bad terms
96. Get more professional clothing
97. Start listening to podcasts regularly
98. Clean out my clothes and donate old ones
99. Invest in silk pillows
100. Write another 101 Things in 1001 Days

101. Learn how to love myself



SUMMER 2017 RECAP - DEMI BANGPhotographer: Alyssa Pakes

Summer 2017 was probably the most productive summer EVER. This summer I decided to work full-time at a nail salon and took on two internships. On top of that, I had the opportunity to work as a content curator for a jewelry company. I’m extremely grateful for everything and everyone, and every opportunity I had this summer.

This was the start of my summer. With Mother’s Day and Memorial Day weekend, I was driving back and forth between Tucson and Phoenix visiting my family. This month was a roller coaster. I started one of my internships and I also had to say good bye to someone who was special to me.

This month, I began working 5-6 days a week at the nail salon and my second internship started. In addition, I went on a California trip with my family and was able to shoot with some local photographers in LA. I also had a couple of interviews for social media positions but I didn’t get any of them. Nonetheless, I was still grateful that they would even consider me and given me the opportunity to interview for me. This month, I had the chance to work with 18 photographers. The amount of content I had planned out and schedule for on my social media platform was overwhelming but definitely worth it!

In July, I was working nonstop. If I wasn’t at work, I was at a meeting or a shoot. I also signed my first apartment lease and I didn’t think I’d ever become this independent in my life. Growing up, I relied on my mom HEAVILY. I started working and saving up in order to pay for rent, gas, food, and school, which I’m proud to say that I’m ALMOST financially independent. In July, I also started working for a jewelry company and I am seriously obsessed with them. They have THE cutest jewelry pieces ever and I kid you not, I wear their pieces on the daily.

I’m happy to be where I am with my social media, but I still have a lot of room for improvement. I’m hoping to take my blog even further than where it is right now, as well as my YouTube and Instagram accounts. I know this probably doesn’t seem like a lot to some people, but it was definitely the most I’ve taken on. I am so excited to share with you guys all the collaborations and projects I have coming up.



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Photographer: Austin John

How often do you see a person of color in the modeling industry? Being a person of color in a white dominated industry is a lot harder than it seems. The industry already has many social conflicts with chosen models being extremely anorexic looking but racism is just a tip of the iceberg.

DEMI BANGMy name is Demi Bang and I have been modeling for 2 and a half years. I have been published internationally in 7 magazines, walked in 6 runways, and have worked with photographers and designers from Arizona, California, New Hampshire, and Utah. With all of those “accomplishments,” I am still yet a nobody and I am probably still where I was two years ago with my modeling. Modeling has been something I have been wanting to pursue ever since I was 13. On the right is a picture that I took when I was 13 because I was too young to go on shoots without a parent and my mom was a full time worker who did not have time to drive me around. I grew up in Tucson, Arizona and to be honest, the photography and modeling community was quite small. When I first got my car and I had finally turned 18, I decided to go to Phoenix roughly every other week because there were so much opportunity up here in terms of modeling. The community in Phoenix was a huge factor as to why I decided to attend Arizona State University instead of University of Arizona.

Modeling has been a passion of mine ever since I started watching America’s Next Top Model. Coming from a small city like Tucson, I never realize that race was such a huge issue up until I moved to Phoenix. I have met many incredible minority models that had experienced racial issues. One of my sorority sister, who is a signed model back in her hometown, posted a status, “Being a person of color in a white dominated industry is so crushing at times,” which made me realize how racist the community is. You know how much the modeling industry lacks diversity when you get excited to see a model who’s the same race as you.

Recently on a shoot with 3 other models, the photographer and designer of the clothing company I was modeling for had made a statement regarding race. The photographer stated, “I’ve always wanted to do kind of a ‘around the world,’ of a shoot. Like, having a blonde, a brunette, an African American, and a Chinese.” Obviously, the Chinese was directed towards me. Even though I am 3 fourths Chinese, I was a bit bothered that they would presume that I am Chinese without clarifying it with me. Call me sensitive, but I find that small racial comments like that seems to always get to me, especially if it’s coming from someone whom you are suppose to be professional with. Another incident happened back in 2015, I did a shoot for a local designer and she had called her Korean princess.

If we look at local modeling agencies in Arizona, we can see there is a huge number of white girls and very few models of different ethnicity. Even if there are girls who are different ethnicity, we can also take note that some of them are half white.

There are many reasons for why the market seems to be so white dominated. The market is targeted towards white people because majority of luxury brand consumers are white people as quoted from The Guardian, “Many have suggested that the reason catwalks and magazines are so white is because designers and editors are often white, but I suspect the phrase “follow the money” is more relevant. As I said earlier, Asian models have become more prominent with the rise of the Asian market for luxury goods.” It makes sense if the targeted audience sees someone who’s similar to their skin, hair, and other features promoting a product. Don’t get me wrong, I would totally buy shampoo and conditioner if one of my favorite Asian bloggers were to endorse it because she has Asian hair and I have Asian hair. I suppose it all depends on the market.

Of course the modeling industry is not racist itself. If we take in consideration of the photographers, creative director, wardrobe stylist, and hair and makeup artist, most of them are white dominated. If we break it down further, the fashion industry as a whole, such as designers, they are mostly white people. If we can get more people of color to be in the process making of the garments or even the editors, we would probably see more diversity in the modeling industry.

Enough with assumptions, and let’s talk statistics. Jezebel noticed that during New York Fashion Week, 87% of the models walking in the runway were white, 4.9% were black, 5.4% were Asian, and 2.7% were Latina. That’s a huge gap difference. Another incident happened with a very well known black model, Chanel Iman. She is one quarter Korean and 3 fourths African. Iman encountered designers rejecting her due to “We already found one black girl. We don’t need you any more.” Although many designers and editors have claimed that the industry is getting more and more diverse of the years, Jezebel has graphed the statistics to show the actual numbers of the racial diversity. So really, has it actually gotten better?


While I was reading Buzzfeed’s “5 Top Casting Directors Explain Why Runways Are So White,” many casting directors for runways are aware of the low diversity the market has to offer. Many directors noticed that since Asia’s market is huge right now, some designers will just simply throw in an Asian model just to target China’s fast growing market. Buzzed quotes, “You can’t just put an Asian girl in your show to appeal to China. That’s equally bad because a Chinese or Korean or Japanese person — they’re not stupid and can tell the difference. I think people do that just because they think, “Oh, China’s the next big market so we have to put one one in.” You should just book them because they’re beautiful.”

Another comment that was made in the article was the lack of options of models to have been chosen from, “Rationally, you would think that if there is a demand, agencies would have to increase the supply. Logically, I would deduce that there is not a big enough demand for black women on the runway.” The casting director goes on and talks about how many times, there aren’t that many difference ethnicity other than white that shows up to casting calls so in all sense, it’s not them that is responsible for the lack of diversity but the agency’s responsibility for not representing more diverse models.


Barbara Nicoli, who is a casting Directors for Burberry, Marchesa, Gucci, Emilio Pucci, Armani Privé and Saint Lauren, states that designers look for a certain body type. Designers do not usually mean to be racist or only steer towards white people but, “Caucasian

s have a specific body type, black girls have a specific body shape, and Asian girls have a specific body shape. So I guess there are some collections where it’s more perfect for an Asian body shape because they are more flat and less sexy, in a way. Asians, they are not curvy, so to put an Asian [who’s] very flat [with a] baby body shape in a show where normally the designer knows they love sexy, beautiful, curvy girls, it’s a bit of nonsense. If you do it, it’s just because you have to or you want to please your customer coming from Asia.” This quote already has a flawed in it and that is ‘being generalized.’ Some Asians can be sexy and curvy. If we look at Justin Mae Biticon, she is a Filipino model who is represented by Ford Models, one of the top agencies out there.

So what exactly does this mean for minority models? Do we just give in to the racist industry or do we push harder and try our best to make it out there?

Also, while I was researching, I noticed, why are there white people modeling for Asian brands? I’m not trying to say that if you’re an Asian market, you should stick to Asian models, and vice versa with any other companies. But even Asian brands seems to be obsessing over white models.
Check out this video of Miranda Kerr in various Japanese commercials.




*8th April Update: I’ve decided to remove the girl’s name because I wanted to move the focus of the blog post from the girl to the actual experience. Long story short, please be careful with whom you trust. I also did receive my money back. Thank you.*


As many of you know, I was scammed. As some of you know, it was by someone whom I trusted and had probably even considered as one of my closest friends.

This post has been in my draft for the past 4 months now, but has been on my mind for the past 8. I never wanted to post this, nor did I want to draw more attention to the person who scammed me, but I think it is important that I let everyone know what had happened so it does not happen to them.

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As many of you know, March is Women’s History Month, and March 8 was International Women’s Day. I don’t know about you guys, but my news feed was filled from women supporting each other to others believing that feminism is a fad started by entitled girls. For me, I believe that feminism is the advocacy of equal rights for both genders but more specifically focusing on the woman’s rights. I don’t believe that it is a fad but may have been heavily surfaced to the media since Trump’s election.

I would like to share my essay that I wrote for my English class last semester, thought this piece was germane seeing as it is Women’s History Month and being a female who loves to skate (but not very good at it), personally I find that the skateboarding community is rather sexist. Over the course of writing this essay, I asked a couple of my friends who skate why they believe that there’s such a huge difference of female to male ratio in the skateboarding community and all of them have said that it’s because of how physically demanding the sport is, however, in Afghanistan, nearly 50% of skateboarders are females. This goes to show that it is not skateboarding itself that is physically demanding but rather how the public in different culture views the sport. Over in Afghanistan, skateboarding is even considered a female sport.

Females in the Skateboarding Community

When a non-skater is asked to name one professional skater, he or she will probably recall Tony Hawk. Tony Hawk is famous for his huge involvement in skateboarding, as well as for being the first to successfully achieve a 900 at the X Games competition. When a non-skater – or even skaters, is asked to name one female in the skateboarding industry, oftentimes the response will be a “I don’t know.” According to the article “The 30 Most Influential Skaters of All Time” in Transworld Skateboarding Magazine, or any list regarding the top skateboarders for that matter, not a single female has made the list (TWS). Pretty much everyone can agree that skateboarding is a male dominant sport, but why is that?

In 2013, a video featuring Lacey Baker, a professional skater for Meow Skateboards, was named one of the best female street skaters according to Thrasher Magazine, a well known skateboarding magazine (Bailey). In other words, Baker is a reputable and well known skater. In Hannah Bailey’s interview with Baker, she calls out the sexism in the skateboarding industry. At one point in the conversation, the skater questioned the reason why men watch women participate in the sport: “Are you watching women skate to get a boner or do you actually respect us for our skill level of skating?” (Bailey). She talks about how her skill level is completely disregarded oftentimes by other male skaters. The skater believes that rather than her fellow male skaters judging her based on her acquired skills, they judge her based on her appearance.

Although she may have had a negative experience with that group of skaters, much of the skateboard community encourages women to skate – considering how few there are out there. It does not necessarily mean that those groups of skaters catcalling females should be ignored. From my experience, most of the catcalling I have received when I skateboard comes from people who do not skate or pretend to skate, otherwise known as posers.

One argument that was made during the interview was about Baker’s income from skateboarding in comparison to male skaters. Nyjah Huston, a professional skater for example, skates for a living; that is his main source of income. For Lacey Baker, however, she does not receive any compensation from companies that sponsor her. Regarding sponsorships, the most Baker receives are flow sponsors, which are free products with no compensation (Bailey). When we think of pro skaters, like Tony Hawk, Ryan Sheckler, and Paul Rodriguez, they are able to leave their current day job in order to continue skateboarding, but that is not the case for the talented female skater. She still works a full time job graphic designing. Perhaps, this has something to do with her skill as a skater. However, the fact that not many women are currently compensated in the sport suggests this has more to do with their gender. Big companies do not sponsor women as much as they do for men due to the unpopularity it holds. Why bother spending time and money towards building the female skate scene when they know they can generate a lot of revenue from the male skate scene?

One of the most popular female skaters is Leticia Bufoni. She is sponsored by some of the biggest skateboarding brands, such as Nike SB and Oakley. It is no doubt that the female pro skater has thousands of young girls looking up to her, hoping to break out of the social norms. In mid 2015, Bufoni did a nude photoshoot for ESPN’s Bodies We Want Magazine issue. The concept of the photoshoot was described as, “At first, you think the photos come off as sexy. But it’s really about what each sport does to the body of a top athlete,” according to the skater during an interview with Rolling Stone (Hendrikx). If the concept of the shoot was to show the athlete’s body in action while performing the sport, then why are the pictures of Bufoni just her simply in the air with her board covering her genital? When the ESPN’s nude pictures of the skater were released, it went viral within the skating community.

It is already taunting enough for girls to go to the skateparks alone due to catcalling and other sexual innuendo. But did the photoshoot with ESPN help with the many cases of young girls wanting to skate? The majority of “core skaters,” skaters who actively ride at skateparks or perform tricks, are males roughly between the ages of 10 through 20, which can give off the impression of these stereotypical skateboarders to be hormonal-filled males. On social media, it is no surprise that male skaters will post the nude pictures of Bufoni with captions such as “Girls Who Skate #WCW” followed by a bunch of water droplets and heart emojis. This also relates back to Baker and her insight on how skaters will judge based on their appearance rather than their skills. Are males really watching females skate for their skills or for their bodies? Out of all the action shots that Bufoni has accumulated over her years of skating, the social media user will most likely post the ESPN pictures. Maybe those pictures were marketed towards males to purchase the magazine, but this essentially discourage women from participating in skateboarding because it objectifies women and their body. This ties back into marketing towards male skaters. Bufoni is an attractive woman with long blonde hair, which generates a lot of attention rather than Lacey Baker, who can be easily mistaken for a male with her short pixie haircut.

Exactly a year ago, Street League Skateboarding, a well known street skateboarding competition, has finally add a women’s division after five years of being founded (Roenigk). One could say that this is a huge progression for the females in the skating community, but is it really something to applaud Street League for, especially if it took them five years to realize that women need their own division? The first place prize for the women’s division is $30,000 while the first place prize for the men’s division is at least $100,000 (Roenigk). Wouldn’t a female skater as talented as Leticia Bufoni rather compete for the larger prize money? Of course, this all comes down to how many views female skaters will generate, and why have such a high prize money for a division where it is unknown to be successful or not? Hopefully in the near future, more women are encouraged to skate and Street League will equalize the prize for their women’s division.

When we look at the demographics of skateboarding in the United States, less than a quarter of core skaters are female. Using “skateboarding involves a lot of injures that many females cannot withstand” as an excuse to explain that reasoning is extremely sexist and highly invalid. If we look into Afghanistan’s demographics for skateboarding, nearly half of the core skaters are females and it is the largest female sport in that country (Perocivch). Even with the controversial gender roles in Afghanistan, no one stopped females from skateboarding since it is such a new and unknown sport that was introduced by Oliver Percovich, a skateboarder who moved to Afghanistan for his girlfriend’s research job, less than a decade ago. Percovich opened a non-profit organization, Skateistan, that gave young children the opportunity to learn skateboarding (Perocivch). This was a complete game changer for the females in Afghanistan. Females were not allowed to do many things, such as having a job, going to school, or even playing any type sport because it was viewed as culturally inappropriate. Skateboarding made young girls feel empowered and are actually encouraged to skate.

The reasoning on why there’s such a huge gender gap in America versus Afghanistan is most likely due to the culture’s perspective on the sport and genders. In a country that oppresses women, skateboarding is becoming a female dominant sport. Skateboarding is not easier in Afghanistan than it is in America. It’s the same sport overall. When the general public of America think of the sport, negative connotations comes to mind. Society is made to believe that skateboarding is for rebels and that it is essentially illegal with signs and warnings such as, “No Skateboarding” or “Skateboarding is Prohibited.” In a way, skateboarding is rebellious because it is an individual sport that differs from the average traditional sport, such as football or cheerleading, which requires weekly practices and authority figures telling you what to do. There is also a huge margin of people who participate in skateboarding compared to football. Already, skateboarding itself is not that widely known within the general public. Society endorses children to participate in more well known sports, such as football or cheerleading, rather than skateboarding due to the negative connotations it presents.

So why exactly is skateboarding such a male dominant sport? When we look at two incredibly talented female skaters, Lacey Baker and Leticia Bufoni, they are both treated differently. More attention is drawn towards Bufoni because of her stereotypical female appearance. It’s not uncommon to see a male skater because it is part of the social norms. Since males have dominated the sport for decades, it is a risk for big companies to invest in the women skating scene when there is not much audience presented. The gender gap presented within the skating community is not because of the gender roles, nor is it because “skateboarding is physically demanding,” or “skateboarding is dirty.” It is rather the public’s perception and the sexism that is presented within the culture.

Bailey, Hannah. “This Pro Skateboarder Wants the Skate Industry’s Views on Women to 180” Broadly RSS. Vice Media LLC, 17 Dec. 2015. Web.

Hendrikx, Eric. “Leticia Bufoni on the Perils of Skating Naked.” Rolling Stone. Rolling Stone, 25 Aug. 2015. Web.

Perocivch, Oliver “Skateboarding in Afghanistan” TEDxSydney. Jun 2014. Lecture.

Roenigk, Alyssa. “6 Reasons Street League Is A Game Changer for Women’s Skateboarding.” EspnW. ESPN, 2 Oct. 2015. Web.

TWS. ”The 30 Most Influential Skaters Of All Time.” TransWorld SKATEboarding. The Enthusiast Network, 14 Feb. 2016. Web.