Here I am again: confused. This always happens. It’s starting to become a monthly thing if you ask me.

I figured, instead of being at home curled up in my bed and re-evaluating everything mentally, I can write this out in a blog post. Sometimes journaling (or writing a blog post, in this case) might be the best to understand how I’m feeling and what is causing those feelings. Here is my life update for the third quarter of 2019.

Yesterday, I woke up with this feeling of uneasiness in my chest. Ugh, I thought. It’s coming. As I search up dozens upon dozens of therapists online, I have yet to find one that accepts my health insurance. I have a couple of options. One, I pay out of pocket. Two, I keep searching. While the first option seems like the simplest route, I know that if my health insurance covers it, why not? I really need professional help, yet my excuse is I just don’t have time. I frankly do not. Between school, working at the consulting firm, working at the nail salon, volunteering, and my blog, I’m spread way too thin. I can’t wait for this semester to be over already.

I’m also going to New York later this week so I’m trying to save as much money as I can so I can splurge out in NYC. I don’t know. I’m really struggling here. I feel like I’m lacking performance in my work. With my undergrad coming to an end, I can’t really fail any classes this semester if I’m planning on graduating next semester. Although, if I do happen to fail classes this semester, it’s okay since worst-case scenario, I can just take them again next year. Let’s not let that happen though!

A couple of new things since my last life update blog post.

I’m Going to be Graduating!

Well, knock on wood. Basically, I need to take one more class next semester, which is an upper-division Communication class that’s worth 3 credits. However, because of some of my scholarships, I need to take a minimum of 12 credits. Booooo. I’ve also been looking into going to graduate school, but the only one that sparks my interest is going for an MBA (Masters of Business Administration).

Arizona State University has an amazing business school but it seems like the average class profile accumulates roughly 5 years prior to going for an MBA. Unfortunately, I only have 2 years of working in a corporate America setting, so I guess either I defy the odds and have well above GRE or GMAT scores, or I could continue working for a couple of years or so and apply later.

I’ve also looked into taking some graduate classes next semester that could possibly transfer to grad school but it doesn’t seem like there’s much. Oh well.

Vocal Lessons

I decided that I wanted to start singing! Karaoke, here I come! I love my vocal teacher so much. Unfortunately, she’s going to be moving to Tucson at the end of this year. Not sure what I’m going to do yet but I hope to continue singing! Since I do have a couple of classes I have to take next semester, I’ve decided to take a singing class as one of them, haha.

Traveling

If you were to ask me a little over a year ago if I liked to travel, my answer would have been no. I did not want to travel within the states, let alone internationally. I’ve been looking into studying abroad during spring break 2020 but it’s all so expensive and it seems like traveling solo through a tour agency is cheaper. Hmm. Not sure yet. I’m a bit scared to travel completely solo as of right now but maybe I will!

In 2019, I traveled to San Fransisco and New York four times now! Some of my upcoming trips for 2020 include Houston, Chicago, Columbus, Nashville, and London! I’m also planning on going to China to visit a friend abroad as well.

Career Path

As I am starting to tell people that I will be graduating next semester, people have tossing advice at me. Not saying that I do not appreciate it, I do. It’s interesting to hear everyone’s perspective. Some say to travel and not to go right into the workforce right after college. Others say to do other things.

Personally, for me, I think it’s more realistic if I go straight into working. I really want to find a company that does 401k matching. Not sure why, but I’ve been freaking out about my retirement savings even though I’m currently 23 hahaha.

My Blog

Everything about my blog and social media has been going great! I’m doing everything I have dreamt about, e.g, getting paid to travel, getting Invisalign, getting microbladed, and so much more. I’m extremely grateful for all the opportunities I’ve had so far in 2019, and I can’t wait for other opportunities.

Game Plan For the Rest of 2019 + 2020

While the rest of 2019 is only a month and a half away, a couple of things I want to start doing.

• I decided that I’m going to take golfing lessons, haha. Golfing seems interesting and I’d like to at least be okay and not terribly bad.
• I have partnered up with a local gym, FRAME, in Tempe and will be consistently working out 3-4 times a week.
• After this semester, I would like to start taking parkour lessons, haha. I used to ‘parkour‘ in high school with my friend, Ethan – I put ‘parkour’ in quotations because all I did was jump over mailboxes, HAHAHA.
• I’ve also been dabbling with the idea of joining more pageants. I’ve only done it once, which was the Miss Vietnam Arizona, last year in 2018. I really did enjoy rehearsal and making new friends. Pageants are a bit expensive, but I think I want to compete in a bigger organization than the Miss Vietnam one.

I suppose that is all for now. I will talk to you later when I come back from NYC!